realisation

it dawned on me that i too have been dwelling on the past. that i've been trying to hang on to whatever's left of the relationship for the wrong reasons. my resolve was fueled by his past merits. my perception was clouded by the confusion and profound misery that i was going through. either i failed to see it or my stubborn streak was at work. past merits. those little snippets of sweetness and loving moments... are no longer there. feelings have changed. priorities have changed. i'm feeling a wave of sadness and release at the same time.