friendship, kinship, relationship. i would like to call them my trinity of despair. you can't imagine the magnitude of misery and heartache i am feeling at this very moment.
i am no one's best friend. this fact has always bugged me. it is quite likely that i am just - 1) not that popular; 2) not that important; 3) not that appreciated; 4) not such a great company; 5) all of the above. i haven't got a clue about who i can seek solace in. next, is the home that i yearn to escape from. this fear of not being able to create my dream family is very real. the thought upsets me so much that sometimes i cry in my sleep. it's unbearable and suffocating. and then there's love. the kind of love that urges you to forgive, to do foolish things, to act without reason. i can hardly remember how it feels like to be in love.
